This is a merge of my 'Wanderer' blog that tells of two years of my three years on the streets, and a new blog that tells of my life after the Diocese of Winchester ripped through my life for for the last few years on top of the previous serious harm that left me homeless
This is a day to day blog of my life as I continue to survive, work on recovery and on the social problems that I have and try to come to terms with limitless traumas I have survived along the way.
This blog is in tandem with my blog about my experiences in the Church of England

The former name of this blog and the name of it's sister blog are to do with my sense of humour, which I hope to keep to the end, which appears to be ever more rapidly approaching. At least I laughed, and I laughed at the people who were destroying me. Don't forget that.

Here are my books, which I wrote for you if you would like to know more:

Friday, 10 March 2017

Friday evening

Good evening peeps,

The carpet needs hoovering.

Today I have felt better apart from the upset stomach persisting and very tired, the hydration stuff is good, but I went back to the pharmacy because they said if I was still slurry spreading by today they would give me some meds.

I have been on those meds since this morning and my body is fighting them because it still wants to play slurry spreading.
I have never had diahhrea like this before and I have no idea what triggered it, I haven't been near any ill people. There is a possibility of food poisoning, and of course anyone can catch an illness out in public.
Of course this illness didn't start as diahhrea, it started as violent shivering that woke me at 2am on Wednesday, followed by a severe headache, then the upset stomach. But I don't remember ever having three days of needing to be near a toilet all the time, it is a bit of a shock to me.

So anyway, apart from that I am better, I have washed the bed linens and pyjamas, those not covered in slurry were soaked in sweat from that initial fever, no, the slurry wasn't that bad.

So, here's hoping I can do about 3 hours work tomorrow, just to keep enough money in for food and essentials. I will need some more electrolyte salt tomorrow if this goes on. I haven't felt like eating and haven't been hungry, so I have had a few complan meals and I got some of those expensive yogurt drinks that some women think are essential, you know the ones with live cultures? They are expensive but there are times when they make sense.

You know how the injury and impact illness tenses my whole body? Well this illness seems to have done the opposite, as well as me going all puffy and clammy, my muscles gone relaxed and floppy, which isn't such a bad thing, because right now I have not needed painkillers since this morning :) I wish they could just cut this muscle that will regularly leave me in agony for the rest of my life, but I think that would cause more problems than it cures.

I am going to bed soon, the evening seems to have vanished and it is actually my normal bed time. Clean sheets, dried outside on the line, nothing better. Here's hoping I am back to normal tomorrow.

Oh I forgot to say, the new book, Rage and Terror Book 1 is on about 50,000 words. I will publish next week if I can find the energy to edit it.


  1. I hope you feel better soon.

  2. Hi Emma, Sorry about my silence, for some reason blogger changed the system and I didn't find your comments for the last four months until just now.
    I made a good recovery from the illness, some people haven't been so lucky, that bug is ferocious.
    I am glad that you have found my books interesting, some of them cannot be made into kindle books unfortunately, thank you for buying the books and reviewing them, that really helps me.
    You asked if the churchwarden book helped me, I am not sure, it was so traumatic that I could hardly edit it, and it doesn't really tell the whole story, I have more to write but I can't yet.
    Best wishes, JJ


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