Introduction

This is a merge of my 'Wanderer' blog that tells of two years of my three years on the streets, and a new blog that tells of my life after the Diocese of Winchester ripped through my life for for the last few years on top of the previous serious harm that left me homeless
This is a day to day blog of my life as I continue to survive, work on recovery and on the social problems that I have and try to come to terms with limitless traumas I have survived along the way.
This blog is in tandem with my blog about my experiences in the Church of England http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/

The former name of this blog and the name of it's sister blog are to do with my sense of humour, which I hope to keep to the end, which appears to be ever more rapidly approaching. At least I laughed, and I laughed at the people who were destroying me. Don't forget that.

Here are my books, which I wrote for you if you would like to know more: http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/JJNP

Sunday, 13 January 2013

good morning peeps,

Last night I slept very lightly, I have been sleeping like that a few tims recently, I remain slightly conscious through the night. And I was distressed. I managed to have sad lost dreams about my family anyway.
I need some eyupmeducks prayers really, they are good at that.

Eventually I got up and went to the loo and set up my office on the kitchen table, the dog who sleeps in the kitchen because he is disruptive was most confused by change of routine but I let him out and he wandered about outside, wandered about in the kitchen and went back to bed, he is confused by this.
Outside there is a stiff arctic wind.
My mood chart says I am 19% compared to 12% yesterday, which means I am theoretically 7% better. But those are shocking scores.  I have been looking into taking St. Johns Wort and I will ask MIND about that tomorrow. I daren't risk the harm that comes from taking prescription anti-deressants, I am struggling enough as it is.

It is 7.30am and no one is up, and we are going at 8.45am as they are at a church some distance away and the weather is bad. They are dropping me off at my 'home' town on the way.
I will have a long tough day with nowhere to go and very little money for tea or hot food. I have food in the hedge but no fuel for my cooker.

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