Introduction

This is a merge of my 'Wanderer' blog that tells of two years of my three years on the streets, and a new blog that tells of my life after the Diocese of Winchester ripped through my life for for the last few years on top of the previous serious harm that left me homeless
This is a day to day blog of my life as I continue to survive, work on recovery and on the social problems that I have and try to come to terms with limitless traumas I have survived along the way.
This blog is in tandem with my blog about my experiences in the Church of England http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/

The former name of this blog and the name of it's sister blog are to do with my sense of humour, which I hope to keep to the end, which appears to be ever more rapidly approaching. At least I laughed, and I laughed at the people who were destroying me. Don't forget that.

Here are my books, which I wrote for you if you would like to know more: http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/JJNP

Saturday, 6 June 2015

Saturday Night

Good evening,

Well I have had the usual difficulty in relaxing at all.

I put my bed linen on a long hot wash and I was going to go out and bike along the bay before going to swim and gym.

But I biked along the bay, and then I ended up eating and ice cream., and reading the papers in the library, and then getting a load of books, and then getting some groceries.
So I had to go home with my books and groceries, and it was so tempting not to go out again.
But if I didn't then I never would.

So I went out, had a swim, really felt the loss of condition from not going for so long, then I did a circuit of the gym.

I came home and hung the washing out.
Then I have mainly been doing paperwork, and writing letters, and a bit of television, nothing interesting, a bit of housework.
Basically I was just compulsively getting stuff done, I have been severely anxious and with ongoing flashbacks for the past few weeks, still with the church of england's death sentence hanging over me, which is intolerable.

I forgot my music and it is too late for piano practice today, don't want to keep everyone awake, and with two weeks to go, I need to get my revision done but none got done. But with tomorrow's housework all done and a lot of other tasks done, I will get music done tomorrow.

I must put clean linen on the bed now. I am too tired to be awake.


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