Introduction

This is a merge of my 'Wanderer' blog that tells of two years of my three years on the streets, and a new blog that tells of my life after the Diocese of Winchester ripped through my life for for the last few years on top of the previous serious harm that left me homeless
This is a day to day blog of my life as I continue to survive, work on recovery and on the social problems that I have and try to come to terms with limitless traumas I have survived along the way.
This blog is in tandem with my blog about my experiences in the Church of England http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/

The former name of this blog and the name of it's sister blog are to do with my sense of humour, which I hope to keep to the end, which appears to be ever more rapidly approaching. At least I laughed, and I laughed at the people who were destroying me. Don't forget that.

Here are my books, which I wrote for you if you would like to know more: http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/JJNP

Wednesday, 12 February 2014

Wednesday Lunchtime

Good lunchtime,
well I had a bit of an uneasy night, nightmmares, terrors and sad dreams.
I dreamed I was talking to my brother, and I said to him that even though the Church of England judged and condemned me, at least I hadn't comitted deliberate crimes and fathered children and abandoned them and their mother for another woman,
I woke up and it really really hit me, it doesn't matter what my brother has done and got away with, I am and always will be, condemned by the church of england, I haven't created illigitimate children and abandoned them and their mother and swanned off to America, I haven't deliberately commited crimes, but it is true that I am the one permenantly damned by a record that the church have got me, and things can only get worse.
I fell asleep again after that dream and woke late, I got up and did the usual things and showered.
Well I was waiting in for recorded delivery but it never arrived, I phoned up and they had only got the documents today, and there was a problem with one, at least I managed to make a phonecall and found out.

I did a pizza for lunch as there was one reduced to 50p at the shop, and all I am doing today is writing, paperwork and emails/phonecalls, same tomorrow.


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