Introduction

This is a merge of my 'Wanderer' blog that tells of two years of my three years on the streets, and a new blog that tells of my life after the Diocese of Winchester ripped through my life for for the last few years on top of the previous serious harm that left me homeless
This is a day to day blog of my life as I continue to survive, work on recovery and on the social problems that I have and try to come to terms with limitless traumas I have survived along the way.
This blog is in tandem with my blog about my experiences in the Church of England http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/

The former name of this blog and the name of it's sister blog are to do with my sense of humour, which I hope to keep to the end, which appears to be ever more rapidly approaching. At least I laughed, and I laughed at the people who were destroying me. Don't forget that.

Here are my books, which I wrote for you if you would like to know more: http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/JJNP

Tuesday 17 July 2018

Remember

As I go, remember,
I smiled, I tried to smile
as the world got darker and darker
and hope got further away

Remember,
I loved people, even though I couldn't bond
and I cared even though I couldn't be close
and my life was to help others

Remember,
I was bewildered and confused
by the cruelty of those who took my life
and their denials to cover their own wrongs

Remember,
I went on and on having hope
that those inflicting the inhumanity would have a change of heart
and I would be able to regain my life
and return home

Remember, 
No one is all bad
even though those who destroyed me
wanted me to be

Remember,
Every happy time I managed to squeeze
out of the endless darkness
poetry and music, days out and learning

Remember me smiling
and know that although eternally branded and condemned
I did my very best
through tears and anguish, hatred and condemnation, 
I did my best. 

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