Well I dragged myself out of the house once the hailstorms stopped.
I walked for a good distance and then I got the bus, I went to church.
I had a funny moment when I walked into church, I was in daydream mood, walked in, quite a group were already there and they all greeted me with 'ohh' and 'welcome!' and I kind of stood there completely blank for a minute.
Thankfully they know me, so as soon as I recovered, I settled and after the usual first few minutes of wanting to leap about and buzz round the ceiling because I still get very anxious at the beginning of church, I was fine, even with a church of england flashback hymn.
My friend was preaching and it was very soothing and I was glad I was there, he preached about 'No more in condemnation' which reminds me that God forgives me and my sins are forgiven, it is only the church of england that condemns me still, and so I asked my friend for a copy of the sermon in order to keep reminding myself. Thank You God.
After the service, everyone was chatting and it was all how it should be, me reunited with my churchpeople, who are my churchpeople and they are good at the talking, and we had a cuppa, and then I went back to my friends' house with them.
My friend did me a supper parcel with triple-decker sandwiches, crisps, a scone, a banana, and they also gave me the remains of the milk and butter and a little bit of money to tide me over, so I will have bread and milk :) cool.
My friend surprised me, she had painted me a picture, and not just any picture, she had used the seascape card that I had given her a while back, it was a photograph card I sent them as a thank you card, and she had done a painting based on it, and it is brilliant! :)
Then I got the bus home and the weather turned really bad again and it is cold now as well, there will be ice everywhere.
A survivor of Church abuse and cover ups goes on battling for her voice to be heard. A daily account of life after the Diocese of Winchester destroyed her and the slow and painful steps to rebuilding a life.
Introduction
This is a merge of my 'Wanderer' blog that tells of two years of my three years on the streets, and a new blog that tells of my life after the Diocese of Winchester ripped through my life for for the last few years on top of the previous serious harm that left me homeless
This is a day to day blog of my life as I continue to survive, work on recovery and on the social problems that I have and try to come to terms with limitless traumas I have survived along the way.
This blog is in tandem with my blog about my experiences in the Church of England http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/
The former name of this blog and the name of it's sister blog are to do with my sense of humour, which I hope to keep to the end, which appears to be ever more rapidly approaching. At least I laughed, and I laughed at the people who were destroying me. Don't forget that.
The former name of this blog and the name of it's sister blog are to do with my sense of humour, which I hope to keep to the end, which appears to be ever more rapidly approaching. At least I laughed, and I laughed at the people who were destroying me. Don't forget that.
Here are my books, which I wrote for you if you would like to know more: http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/JJNP
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