Wednesday Morning

Good morning,

Well I woke up ill, but I can do nothing about the stress from the church, I cannot afford a proper head support, I have to wait until April to get a new gum shield, which may help, because I grind my teeth even during the day now, because of the stress of the Church of England.

I was having nightmares as well, but woke without lasting flashbacks.

I have a free day, there won't be many more of these in the future if I go ahead as a volunteer gardener. Because between the shop and the gardening, and eventually part time paid work if I am lucky, I will be working all the time, it is only the church that will sabotage my work, again, with their henious attacks on my life and character.

I have had a raft of painkillers and still barely feel like facing the world.
Having no money doesn't help.

I have eaten odds and ends, I just need to shower and get dressed.

It feels like there is absolutely nothing to live for, but don't jump in and claim I am suicidal, I gave up on that years ago, I died years ago, this is hell.