Let me have my name back

Let me have my name back now

not the one you dragged through the shame and horror

and took from me

not that name

that name and it's owner died

my name that made me safe from you

that name that made the bad go

that made the cold brute Jane Fisher go

and gave me back my life

my real name

chosen by me

that I smiled at when called

my own name

safe from the horror of my childhood

and the even greater horror

of the church of england in their wickedness

my new name that they did not know

and couldn't blacken

now I can have my name back

and the horror is over

but it will never be over

until I am allowed to die

they traced me and took my new name from me

and destroyed me again

and tried to change my name back to 

the one they destroyed

it's getting late

it's getting dark

I have waited for so long

for names and life and what has been forced on me

to end, to go, and for God 

to allow my death