Wednesday

Hey peeps,

It would be nice to think I could stop living in fear and be me. Be my real name in public.
But to be honest, I am pretty sure that the church and their press are about to kill me with the next press and media onslaught. So maybe I shouldn't sign my real name yet 😉 Although it isn't quite the shamed and branded name I had.

My post about yesterday wasn't quite as clear as I would like. But I am on codeine. I couldn't do the clearance work today, yesterday's journey left me ill, and I thought I would be alright as I wasn't in as much pain as usual, but I wasn't alright really, so I came home, had codeine and after writing that post, I went to bed. It rained anyway, so I don't know how much they got done.

I woke up an hour ago. So it hasn't been much of a day. A non-day. I did ask earlier in the week if  we could move today's work to later in the week, but it wasn't moveable. I knew it wouldn't be easy to work after a day like yesterday. Well at least I know more about why I get sick from travelling these days. The movement of travel affects my joints, puts too much stress on them.

I sit here listening to the 'Goodbye Littleton' song on repeat, it is hard to let go, because what I lost was irreplaceable.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lbAisNM0g1Q

I should shower and do a meal, but I don't feel like it. I don't feel so ill but I don't want to do anything.

It was nice getting Valentines flowers, although they were on twitter. Much easier to look after twitter flowers, I can't bump the vase and knock them over. Twitter valentines were nice and sweet, I don't usually notice valentines day.