Tuesday evening

Good evening,

Well yesterday the weather got brighter so I went out on my bike, but the ground was too wet for gardening.
Last night I went to bed early but had to knock myself out with high dose 5HTP.
I only had vague terrors and woke this morning not really wanting to get up, thankfully the newsround means I have to get up.
It was a bright morning but with strong winds, rain was blowing from clouds far away, but I got the round done before it got too bad.
My work today was cancelled due to the site being under renovation and at a point where I couldn't work round the renovators.
Argh.

Bob Hill did another blog all of a sudden.
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2015/05/jerseys-dean-all-quiet-on-winchester.html

For once it helped me by releasing some of the severe tension I have been carrying for so long.

I have been busy with paperwork for various things that I am not telling you yet.

I feel tired, I can't get the medicines I need because I am not on ESA any more so I don't get free prescriptions until I get tax credits, so at the moment I have no tablets or inhalers and so my peak flow is pretty bad, I can't afford my meds, I am still on a low income. It will get better in the next few weeks though.

I have been out on my bike, the waves on the bay are big and clean., real surfer's waves, however, I am not fit to surf or do any watersports this year :(

The cat has been busy, he was sleeping out in the garage a lot, he has always had a nest there but went through a phase of sleeping there a lot.
But right now he is in a purring heap in my armchair, he had always ignored my armchair until the other day and I found him sitting there, looking very unsure of what my reaction would be, so I put his blanket on the armchair and he is very happy.
He was still also sleeping in the garage but this morning I went in there, expecting him to be there, but a tent or a folding chair was lying across his nest, I had a horrible feeling it fell on him, and I couldn't find him, but when I did, I checked he was OK and showed him I had moved the horrible object that fell on his peaceful snoozery. Poor cat! I love my cat, he is a great comfort to me.
This afternoon I was so tired I tried to have a sleep, but the cat came and sat on me and washed itself, it is so difficult to sleep when a cat is sitting on you and washing itself.

I am just watching my programmes, then I will do the hoovering and mopping and put the bins out, the local bylaw is bins go out after 7pm, or something.

I am having a much needed break from music today. I get very tense about music and my tutor says I don't need to, I should have time off sometimes.