Friday Afternoon

Good afternoon,

Well I was tired yesterday evening but I stayed up until 10pm despite being tired and having a big newsround to do this morning.

I slept soundly apart from one toilet break at 4am, the cat slept soundly even through that, he sometimes gets up and wanders off when I go to the loo, but I had to check he was alive as he didn't even stir.
In fact the cat was still sound asleep when I got up this morning, then he was all purrs and stretching and meows.

Unfortunately, night time and rests are when I have least control of my brain and so flashbacks and distresses are most likely, and so at 4am I started getting distressed, then I slept, and woke at a sleepy 6am, I went to do the newsround early as it is the local paper day, and so the round is big and heavy with all the local papers as well as the usual morning papers.
I finished the round at the usual time and showered and had breakfast before going to the contract work.
Today was hard work but we finished by lunchtime, and it was raining, so never mind gardening this afternoon.

I got home feeling exhausted and shivering cold, I tried to have a rest but ended up suffering flashbacks and distress and so I got up, still shivering, and had a warm bath, which helped a lot.
I am trying to sort myself and my usual tasks out but I am still tired and hardly OK.

At the moment I am simply waiting for a lot of things, everything is on pause, but I have work every day except Sunday, when I only have the paper round.