Wednesday Lunchtime

Good lunchtime,
well I had a bit of an uneasy night, nightmmares, terrors and sad dreams.
I dreamed I was talking to my brother, and I said to him that even though the Church of England judged and condemned me, at least I hadn't comitted deliberate crimes and fathered children and abandoned them and their mother for another woman,
I woke up and it really really hit me, it doesn't matter what my brother has done and got away with, I am and always will be, condemned by the church of england, I haven't created illigitimate children and abandoned them and their mother and swanned off to America, I haven't deliberately commited crimes, but it is true that I am the one permenantly damned by a record that the church have got me, and things can only get worse.
I fell asleep again after that dream and woke late, I got up and did the usual things and showered.
Well I was waiting in for recorded delivery but it never arrived, I phoned up and they had only got the documents today, and there was a problem with one, at least I managed to make a phonecall and found out.

I did a pizza for lunch as there was one reduced to 50p at the shop, and all I am doing today is writing, paperwork and emails/phonecalls, same tomorrow.