Saturday Lunchtime

Good afternoon.
Well I woke up this morning and wandered into the shower before I was really awake.
Then I did the washing and hoovered the carpet.

Then i had to go out and go and watch the skating.
I do not think it is fair that I can only watch and cannot skate any more.
My last attempt at skating was about 3 or 4 months ago. My body is too smashed up for skating any more but I long to skate, I loved skating so much, and having to watch it makes me feel so sad and full of longing, but even wearing the skates hurts me and on the ice I am so painful and stiff :(
I wish that something would magically change, so that I could afford the physio, the treatment and coaching to get myself back into some kind of physical fitness and overcome the pain, but the diocese's crazy actions prevented me from even proceeding with hydrotherapy :(

I can't even afford to live at the moment.