Monday night

Good evening,
I sometimes get too upset to know what to do, it is lovely to have so much support on twitter and the blogs.
I have mainly been writing and feeling upset, and the evening has gone quickly and I should be asleep but I know I would lie there feeling upset.
I had macaroni cheese, and have watched television a bit.
I must try to sleep.
I am so upset about the Church of England as the Jersey wrongdoers increasingly win and the diocese are preparing to destroy me with their biased reports. What can I do? they have been killing me for five or six years for the crime of being me, being vulnerable and abused and raw, it has to end somewhere, and I think I will just stop living when they publish their cover-us, because I am too broken to be broken more.