In case you are wondering. I will never say that I belong to a church again.
I wander in and out of churches and I worship and do this and that, but no church will ever be 'my church' and that way I will never be as vulnerable to the church of england again.
I have little faith in church relationships and I know that I have no ability to trust church people.
I can't bond with people after what has happened, I had little bonding ability before, and I do not trust anyone who gets too involved.