Morning peeps,
When the library closed yesterday I had a few hours to wait until bed time and enough money for a chip butty and enough stickers for a cup of tea.

Eventually I went and lay down in the blanket pile in the corner and slept, I woke at 1.30am feeling very rough, the drunken shouts nearby had been mingling with my nightmares and I was cold - which is unusual and I needed the loo, the weather was changing for the worse with the wind picking up and rain coming in, so I removed myself to the safety and shelter of the porch.
I was unusually cold and so I fished some handwarmers out of the backpack and put one in my bandanna and one in my sleeping bag and tucked down and slept again.

I woke up warm and comfy at 7am and the rain had stopped but it was windy and the ground was wet.
I felt low and it is always hard to get up when I feel like this, and I was in pain, i dragged myself out of the blankets and packed up and stashed everything. My money was in so I got breakfast at McD's and sat there for some time reading my book, then I had a wash and waited for the library to open.
I didn't feel like a walk. My system is on the blink, there is blood when there shouldn't be and there is pain, very noticable pain and no longer just the sharp intermittent pain, it is radiating and dull deep pain, I have put a heat patch on my side but I do not think it is just gallbladder pain now, something is wrong and my heart keep beating wrong too.

I need my friends at the moment but at the moment there is no-one to turn to right now.