good morning peeps,

Last night I slept very lightly, I have been sleeping like that a few tims recently, I remain slightly conscious through the night. And I was distressed. I managed to have sad lost dreams about my family anyway.
I need some eyupmeducks prayers really, they are good at that.

Eventually I got up and went to the loo and set up my office on the kitchen table, the dog who sleeps in the kitchen because he is disruptive was most confused by change of routine but I let him out and he wandered about outside, wandered about in the kitchen and went back to bed, he is confused by this.
Outside there is a stiff arctic wind.
My mood chart says I am 19% compared to 12% yesterday, which means I am theoretically 7% better. But those are shocking scores.  I have been looking into taking St. Johns Wort and I will ask MIND about that tomorrow. I daren't risk the harm that comes from taking prescription anti-deressants, I am struggling enough as it is.

It is 7.30am and no one is up, and we are going at 8.45am as they are at a church some distance away and the weather is bad. They are dropping me off at my 'home' town on the way.
I will have a long tough day with nowhere to go and very little money for tea or hot food. I have food in the hedge but no fuel for my cooker.