I am sitting here struggling to do anything because I am so depressed and distracted.

I spent the night dreaming of churches and courtrooms and police.

God help me, and God help all the poor people who still think putting me indoors and getting me a job is possible, let alone an answer to my future, my last job was the best I ever had and yet I struggled badly because of the church and lost the job because of the church in such a horrible humiliating way, and the same with my home. When you have heard my full story you will understand why I have no future, no happy ending with a home and a family and a 'nice job', and hopefully you will understand from what I have written so far that work and finance always have been, and always would be, a struggle due to my disabilities.